Operator Error

My Parkinson's is now 7 years on, so I’ll begin

My right leg doesn’t work; I stomp, and my right foot turns in

I shuffle, drag my foot, this leg cramps up and goes tight

If you looked at me head on, you would think I’m gonna  turn right

I catch the floor as I walk, my steps short as my right foot thumps

You can hear me coming , it feels like I’m walking on a stump

my right arm doesn’t swing, it’s lethargic, Static and slow

I walk like Parker from  thunderbirds for those in the know

My body is stiff , upright, sat on the edge of the seat watching the telly

Legs knocking together and my hands dancing as they tap on my belly

My tongue feels raw and is that burning I can smell

These mounting conditions, sometimes I withdraw into my shell

Bedtime I dread, the night terrors, the vivid dreams

Like a bad movie your in and no one can hear your screams

My body surfs as my legs do continuous  butterfly kicks

My arms flail and hit out, is it Parkinson's or my drugs that are making me tick

The trio of fear, Insomnia, fatigue and anxiety a formidable frontline for any team

They can play together or individually, they never seem to run out of steam

I have bruises appearing often and in random places

I now use slip on shoes, and I can’t do up my laces

My writing get smaller as my hand stiffens and goes tight

I used to be a social butterfly, now I no longer go out at night

Parallel Park, could do it blindfolded, relaxed and at ease

Now I can’t judge distances, even large spaces, look such a tight squeeze

My mental awareness is poor, my  sat nav isn’t working and I’ve slowed

I get lost easily, even walking, like I’ve punched in the wrong post code

My internet seems to be down and I’m showing the strain

I need rebooting, if only I could turn myself on and off again

I’m struggling to work all this out, so in this case I’ll be the bearer

Is this my Parkinson's or just old age and operator error