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Halloween Night

Updated: Nov 4, 2023

We rush to prepare costumes and makeup

An electricity runs through the house

I am the ringmaster

These are my animals

Wild and unpredictable

Loving and gentle

They bite the hand that feeds them sometimes

I would stick my head in the mouth of these lions

The doorbell rings

"Trick or treat"

My daughter frantically rushes to grab the candy bowl

There is joy in the giving


Now it’s their turn to ring the doorbell

"Trick or treat"

"Say thank you" I yell from the street


There is a chill in the air

It’s unseasonably cold

My foot starts to drag as I pull myself up the next sidewalk hill


It is dark, and I am hiding behind a vampires face

It feels good to hide, familiar


Screams fill the air..followed by laughter

We walk

We walk

I feel every step

Something is wrong

My walk is uncomfortable

Pulling always pulling

“Que linda” a lady yells my way

“You look very pretty” is what it means

I smile, “gracias” thank you


We have to head back

My meds are wearing off

I already took two more than I should


My son moans a little

“Just a few more houses?”

My daughter shoots him a stern gaze


They run home with their friends

To survey their loot

I struggle to make it upstairs to the bathroom

One more pill

To maintain the costume of normalcy


Everything has a price

A wise old woman told me that years ago

I will gladly pay it in flesh


“This is the end of an era” my daughter says

She’s right

We all sense it

“Why are you walking up the stairs weird?”

It’s Parkinson’s

Nothing can scare you

When you live with a beast

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Honest words are always the hardest, It’s not easy but try to stay positive.we don’t live with it….it lives with us …I call my Parkinson’s. Cecil and I keep him out of sight down in the cellar and do my best to never let him out. it sort of works for me….stay strong and good luck 🤞

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A very dark poem, to most people it would only happen in a nightmare, for us it is very real. We all struggle even when medicated, we should not be afraid to let people see us in an off state, easier said than done.

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Unknown member
Nov 05, 2023

Our common monster, hiding behind a mask..

Lovely writing

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Darrell Troon
Darrell Troon
Nov 02, 2023

To maintain tha costume of normality,, I have never thought about my medication before I just take it as prescribed , but it is just a disguise! it’s certainly not a cure. Thank you I enjoyed reading this.

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